Bliss and Frustration: 32 is a trip!

I said, 'Lady I don't know you but let me assure you that you are in the perfect will of God at this moment.' I told her of my recent rebellious decision and current sexual status – "you're a virgin????" she asked. She was about 55 - give or take – standing there with eyebrows raised and mouth open…and this look on her face that I can't even explain… I was a little offended by the look on her face …so she then explained: "Girl, that's awesome! You're in a very powerful position right now. Don't give in to your flesh and compromise your power. Do you realize how powerful your testimony is?" At that time no, I didn't realize how powerful my testimony was…I did, however, realize how powerful my flesh and emotions were and how powerful the sexy words of my Bahamian suitor were. Long story short - we encouraged each other. She didn't feel she was getting her point across to society – so meeting me was a blessing to her ministry. Her obedience and calling was a blessing to me and my ministry. Yes, I'm a minister. Unfortunately, I allowed myself to get to a point of desperation where I broke down emotionally. Fortunately, my Lord was right there with an immediate answer for my self-inflicted crisis.

At 32, this was just the assurance that I needed. His quick responselet me know THREE things: 1) My Father heard my rebellious monologue in the car just minutes earlier. 2) He HAD NOT forgotten about me and I was in His will and not just being too uptight and old school. And 3) HE WAS NOT HAVING IT!!! He was covering me and asserting His ownership over me...I like that!!! God knew my situation and cared enough to respond immediately. What a birthday gift; my direct, very real, undeniable answer from the Lord that I was NOT forgotten and right in the place where He has ordained for me to be for this season!!!